I Can't Catch A Break

Real life….I swear I can’t catch a break. The saying “when it rains, it pours” yeah it can go away at any damn minute. I try not to post negative shit, but, Jesus I’m at my limit. This is my reality. I’m simply….At my breaking point.

Marci Renee holding McD's coffee

Back story: I grew up with three brothers and was always doing whatever they were doing…I started steeet racing with my import homies when I was 15/16 years old. Yes there were turbos and foggers in ‘00!

Social media is full of fakes. I’m not that. I’m raw, brutually honest and it’s time to tell my story. I’ve suffered in silence for entirely way too long.

Because I’ve had to explain this twice in the last week and it’s seemingly an underlying issue….I’m throwing it out there….

Marci Renee Before and after losing weight

I’m judged on a daily basis. I had my “glow up” and everyone judges me for me being me. I am who I am. I love racing, I can’t explain it. It’s my happy place. It’s what I know. I’m not trying to be someone I’m not. If I don’t know, I have the willingness to learn. I’ll fix whatever it is to go rounds, with no apologies.

There’s very few females that I get along with. I try. I try like hell, but it all goes back to being judged. At the end of the day, I don’t fit in with the majority of women.

I’m different. I’ve had to go through life alone, my entire life. I’ve had to become masculine so people wouldn’t walk all over me. I’m opinionated. I get shit done. I make no apologies for that. You either like me or you don’t. You either support me or you don’t. At the end of the day, it’s a very isolated life and lonely feeling.

Marci Renee holding bracelets for getting into race track

I live my life without passing judgement on others because it’s not fair. I’m way more than my appearance. I’m a hard ass because I’ve had to be. I’ve been on my own since I was 17 years old. I never went back home, never asked anyone for a penny.

I share this because the next time you pass judgement on someone, get to know them. Listen to their story. God forbid, get to know someone and why they tick the way they do.

I’m not perfect. Yes, I’ve made mistakes. Yes, I have a big mouth, but I promise you my heart is even bigger! I have morals and boundaries. My kids watch EVERYTHING I do. But, it’s the lessons learned that help you grow as a person. If you aren’t willing to change for the better, you aren’t living! If you don’t want more, you aren’t living!

At the end of the day, I know who I am. I know my strengths. I know my weaknesses. I know what I need to work on to become a better version of myself yesterday. You cross me in anyway, yeah I’m not going to hide it. You want to treat me like a piece of shit? Got it! I’ll tear you the same way. You want to be compassionate and understanding? I got you!

There’s more but I’ll leave it at this for now…..Morale of the story: we are all going through shit behind closed doors. It’s how we deal with it and those in our circle who support and help us to reach our full potential.

 

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